scribbles of lazy me

And i found a book in my store room lying in heap of books.Actually, It would be wrong to call it a book, it was an album, covered in dust and i thought it had disappeared.I brushed off the dust with with my fingers and discovered some familiar words written in bold letters  "Truncated Childhood" i read it aloud and a voice echoed in that empty room.A Lorry full of memories accelerated through my mind as the voice echoed and a spark appeared in the eyes like i was a new born baby and was going to see my mom for the first time.i turned over the cover page and opened it . The first page said "I'll love you even if I'm not here".Reading those words, my eyes got wet but then, i controlled myself and flipped the page and moved to the next one.The album started with a photograph of a new born baby.Obviously,It was me.It was my album afterall and believe me, when you are just 2 hours of age ,you realy look yuk.Atleast i was looking yuk, thats what i think. But,

Sometimes i feel like my head is an egg and you are its yolk that you always keep on rolling inside it, that, At the nights, in my dream i see you and then, i wake up with a thought of you running in mind and thats the way my day starts everyday. Before meeting you, I anticipate about the scene in which i'm with you and i practice the things in front of mirror the way 'i will tell you' . But, the moment you come in front of my eyes, My body goes Numb and i feel so Dumb that i can't utter a word.  Words,I have so many to say. Still, I feel afraid that they might fall short and they might end and in that hullabaloo occuring inside me, I can't even say. My hearts skips a beat when ever i think of you and If we talk about feelings, they are always new, When i'm in front of you. You came and went but these feeling never did the same and everytime i meet you , they are different in a way but they always make me lame. Fears of losing you always keep on

If I look up now for the rainbow i saw as a boy, There are no longer the seven colors only a mist and fog, As time passes by, and the world around me changes, No matter where i search for you,you're nowhere to be found,  So i close my eyes, and open my heart... I need to know, if i gaze up again, Will things be different this time? Maybe if i was more honest, the fog would fade away, So i pray, screaming that wish deep within my soul. They say when you lose one thing, you gain another, don't you? But still, no matter the waves of pain hit me I will keep looking for you! My dream!My friend!My Light!

I didn't know what went wrong, what made her walk away? I tried to figure out, but nothing she would say For my questions pestered her, my tears made her embarrassed I never wanted to be a priority, but a little love was all i expected I still kept giving, giving in day and out But all went in vain, when all she beheld were doubts doubts of an uncertain tomorrow,as she told me, i have to go My dreams, my wishes, my love were shattered in a single blow I stood by the balcony, looking into the thin air I clung onto her picture,  crying silently so that no one sees All i begged my fate, was a sight of hers Occupied with things important , she had moved on well in life It was never tough for her, for i was another man by her side She thought i must be over her by then, least was she aware that i died each day I moved out, i had forgotten how it felt being loved I seek a place to pour my heart out, i looked below and above When saw no place to confine,

Families in  India  are increasingly aborting their second child if they know it to be a girl and they already have a daughter, a study shows. Scientists estimate that up to 6 million girls have been aborted in India over the past decade by couples who do not want a large family and are determined to have a son. The practice is more widespread among wealthier and better educated Indian families, who are better able to afford the prenatal tests and medical intervention they want. While it has been known that there has been a tendency to abort girls in India since the first census in 1871, the latest evidence suggests that the practice is common throughout the country. The research,  published in the Lancet , suggests that the Indian government's attempt to tackle the issue by outlawing ultrasound scans that identify the sex of a foetus has not worked. The Pre-Natal Diagnostic Techniques Act was passed in 1996 to stop medical staff telling parents the sex of a foetus.

That one girl, whom he left crying, That one girl, for whom his heart went blind, That one girl, who made him smile, That one girl, who made him believe in love for a while, That one girl, who was his symbol of trust, That one girl, who was his one & only lust That one girl, for whom he could take on the world, That one girl, whose heart was as pure as a pearl That one girl, who meant life for him, That one girl, who is now just a dream That one girl, who he yearns for at night That one girl, whose eyes could start a fight That one girl, who he left alone, That one girl, who is now somewhat gone That one girl, who is truly missed That one girl, for whom he wishes now if she exist...

IT DOESN'T MATTER HOW FAR YOU RUN.. THERE IS ONE DEMON THAT YOU JUST CAN'T ESCAPE.. AND THATS THE DEMON INSIDE YOU..

I know that the only thing keeping us apart is the miles between us. If it weren’t for that, I know for a fact that you’d be right here right now, cuddling underneath this blanket with me before I fall asleep. I honestly don’t know how I used to get through the day before you came into my life, but I really can’t see myself getting by without you there now. And I know that for now the closest thing to having you by my side when I sleep is by looking at your face through a monitor. For now, that will have to do. But one way or another, I will be right next to you at night. I need to be next to you. Because I need to fall asleep knowing that everything precious to me is safe. And where else would you be safer than in my arms. Pretty soon, you’ll be sleeping on this pillow next to me. Not this laptop.

Your presence is like a cold wind blowing all over me. It makes me to tremble, makes me feel weak that all I want is for you to wrap your warm loving arms around my shivering body.  Your face is all I want to see each passing day. Sometimes I feel like I am hallucinating because wherever I am, I see you there.  I am crazy about you baby. I'm crazy about your kiss that always leads me to a place of forgetfulness. It makes me forget the rest of the existence...it is just you and me I see... just you and me  

hey dosto..howz you all doing? its so long that i wrote last time, was just busy with this sometime goodie goodie and sometime worse like hell ,so called, fateful life, but i hope u all doing great.well, have lots of things to discuss with you but what to do, this time always fell short but better we dont discuss about time. you know what?? sometimes i feel like my head is an egg and the word  "LIFE"  is its yolk, may be thats why question about this life keep rolling inside my head all the time.can anybody give answer to this small but too big query of mine.                                                           WHAT'S LIFE? ya this qustion might look small by words but when we begin to discuss about it. mind me,we can write loads and loads of book over this small que.everybody has its own definition about it,everybody take it in his own way that if we begin to pen them down, i dont know it will ever end or not.so dont try to think this quest a small one.

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I guess I should have told you about the other night I think I really tried to but it never came out right He came from out of nowhere it happened very fast I wouldn’t even go there it’s just a memory from the past ‘cause baby You’re the one, who understands the way I’m feeling You’re the one, the one who never stops believing Every night who’s the one I come to, the one that I belong to So don’t  worry ‘bout a thing ’cause you’re the one Remeber when we first met you stole my heart away I will never forget the promises you made And I think about the way I feel when you’re lying next to me ‘cause baby You’re the one, who understands the way I’m feeling You’re the one, the one who never stops believing Every night who’s the one I come to, the one that I belong to So don’t  worry ‘bout a thing ’cause you’re the one When you look me in the eyes I know why I will never say goodbye ‘Cause I know what I’ve got and it sure is a lot And there is

She's starin' at me I'm sittin' wonderin' what she's thinkin' Nobody's talkin' 'cause talkin' just turns into screamin' And now it’s I'm yellin' over her, she yellin' over me All that that means is neither of us is listening And what's even worse? That we don't even remember why we’re fighting So both of us are mad for Nothing, fighting for Nothin', crying for Nothing, whoa But we won’t let it go for Nothing, no not for Nothing, this should be Nothing to a love like what we got Oh baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain But baby, can we make up now? 'Cause I can't sleep through the pain Can't sleep through the pain Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me Oh no no no And it gets me upset Girl when you’re constantly acc