scribbles of lazy me

Sometimes i feel like my head is an egg and you are its yolk that you always keep on rolling inside it, that, At the nights, in my dream i see you and then, i wake up with a thought of you running in mind and thats the way my day starts everyday. Before meeting you, I anticipate about the scene in which i'm with you and i practice the things in front of mirror the way 'i will tell you' . But, the moment you come in front of my eyes, My body goes Numb and i feel so Dumb that i can't utter a word.  Words,I have so many to say. Still, I feel afraid that they might fall short and they might end and in that hullabaloo occuring inside me, I can't even say. My hearts skips a beat when ever i think of you and If we talk about feelings, they are always new, When i'm in front of you. You came and went but these feeling never did the same and everytime i meet you , they are different in a way but they always make me lame. Fears of losing you always keep on...

If I look up now for the rainbow i saw as a boy, There are no longer the seven colors only a mist and fog, As time passes by, and the world around me changes, No matter where i search for you,you're nowhere to be found,  So i close my eyes, and open my heart... I need to know, if i gaze up again, Will things be different this time? Maybe if i was more honest, the fog would fade away, So i pray, screaming that wish deep within my soul. They say when you lose one thing, you gain another, don't you? But still, no matter the waves of pain hit me I will keep looking for you! My dream!My friend!My Light!