scribbles of lazy me

Sometimes i feel like my head is an egg and you are its yolk that you always keep on rolling inside it, that, At the nights, in my dream i see you and then, i wake up with a thought of you running in mind and thats the way my day starts everyday. Before meeting you, I anticipate about the scene in which i'm with you and i practice the things in front of mirror the way 'i will tell you' . But, the moment you come in front of my eyes, My body goes Numb and i feel so Dumb that i can't utter a word.  Words,I have so many to say. Still, I feel afraid that they might fall short and they might end and in that hullabaloo occuring inside me, I can't even say. My hearts skips a beat when ever i think of you and If we talk about feelings, they are always new, When i'm in front of you. You came and went but these feeling never did the same and everytime i meet you , they are different in a way but they always make me lame. Fears of losing you always keep on...

If I look up now for the rainbow i saw as a boy, There are no longer the seven colors only a mist and fog, As time passes by, and the world around me changes, No matter where i search for you,you're nowhere to be found,  So i close my eyes, and open my heart... I need to know, if i gaze up again, Will things be different this time? Maybe if i was more honest, the fog would fade away, So i pray, screaming that wish deep within my soul. They say when you lose one thing, you gain another, don't you? But still, no matter the waves of pain hit me I will keep looking for you! My dream!My friend!My Light!

I didn't know what went wrong, what made her walk away? I tried to figure out, but nothing she would say For my questions pestered her, my tears made her embarrassed I never wanted to be a priority, but a little love was all i expected I still kept giving, giving in day and out But all went in vain, when all she beheld were doubts doubts of an uncertain tomorrow,as she told me, i have to go My dreams, my wishes, my love were shattered in a single blow I stood by the balcony, looking into the thin air I clung onto her picture,  crying silently so that no one sees All i begged my fate, was a sight of hers Occupied with things important , she had moved on well in life It was never tough for her, for i was another man by her side She thought i must be over her by then, least was she aware that i died each day I moved out, i had forgotten how it felt being loved I seek a place to pour my heart out, i looked below and above When saw no place to confine,...

I know that the only thing keeping us apart is the miles between us. If it weren’t for that, I know for a fact that you’d be right here right now, cuddling underneath this blanket with me before I fall asleep. I honestly don’t know how I used to get through the day before you came into my life, but I really can’t see myself getting by without you there now. And I know that for now the closest thing to having you by my side when I sleep is by looking at your face through a monitor. For now, that will have to do. But one way or another, I will be right next to you at night. I need to be next to you. Because I need to fall asleep knowing that everything precious to me is safe. And where else would you be safer than in my arms. Pretty soon, you’ll be sleeping on this pillow next to me. Not this laptop.

HIE FRIENDS ... Today,i have a story to share with you and mark my word friends, its worth reading.. Here it goes.. Long time ago, there was a beautiful princess of some kingdom (Dont worry ,its not like that old stories of prince and princess.. its lil different. a story of a princess and slave). so, where was i? yeah, one of the pawn of that kingdom fell in love with that princess and without caring about his life, he went to princess and expressed his love and all the feelings , he had for her. Princess   :  what's so special about you that i should love you? Are you the prince of somewhere? or you are the poet or some great artist, that i would give my heart for his talent. or Are you the strongest pawn of my kingdom? pawn  : neither i m a prince nor a poet and artist.I m simple pawn who cant even prove that he is the strongest of all . But ya , i can prove one thing that i love you alot and no one else can love  you, the way i do. princess :  Then p...

Yesterday night was one of those wierd nights that i realy dont want to go through and live.. wierd nights with wierd dreams... wierd dreams making me fall with fears ....fear of losing someone.. fear of being lone again.. fear to get those days back when i used to smile or i should say fake smile but inside it was all shattered... inside there was nothing but darkness. May be thats my destiny. I always try to take this world in positive way and to some extent i do it as well but u know what sometimes its hard enough to be positive bcoz sometimes this life itself become so negative that nothing can be positive after it. There was always a single question in my head that why we need others to be with us. Are we dependent on them or we are selfish enough that we be them bcoz we need them. Human nature is really hard to understand, isnt it? we cant live without people, always have fear of losing them but when they are with us...we never care for their existence, never make them feel s...

You know what friends… yesterday I asked someone… “what’s your idea about these three words ‘thing beyond forever’ ..i m going to write a post with this title” and she was just  like laughing and here’s some  part of our convo… me (27/09/11 5:03:41 PM) : thing beyond forever she (27/09/11 5:04:10 PM) : hmmm she (27/09/11 5:04:11 PM) : nice hai she (27/09/11 5:04:14 PM) : interesting bhi me( 27/09/11 5:04:23 PM) : kya interesting... she (27/09/11 5:04:55 PM) : title is very interseting me (27/09/11 5:05:46 PM) : hmmm post gonna b interesting as well... what u think whats that thing beyond forever she (27/09/11 5:06:19 PM) : beyond forever she (27/09/11 5:06:30 PM) : there is nothing like forever she (27/09/11 5:06:36 PM) : everything last me (27/09/11 5:07:01 PM) : something never do.. she (27/09/11 5:07:22 PM) : sab kuch khtatam ho jata hai(everything lasts) she (27/09/11 5:07:38 PM) : so forevr fairy tales mein hi acha hai (...

Missing my someone..*****(no names ):p .. You know I always think about the word  'attraction'. What is it? Why is it? Is it just about testosterone and epinephrine, nothing more? I personally hate to think there is nothing more to attraction. I realy do. Attraction which is natural, between a creator and its creation, I understand. But I am talking about the kind of attraction which is illogical, unreasonable, which there is no need of- urgent or latent- and yet no way one can avoid it. There is no explaination of that attraction and yet all the while the mind tries to unlock the mystry with in it. Like the waves of the sea which come up unremittingly onto the shore, all day and night, just to caress the boulder around. What is it that make sea care for boulders? Like the sun which rises and sets and rises again relentlessly. What is it that doesn’t let the sun to revolt? Like the moon which acts as a cupid for all the young hearts. What is its interest in doing so? Lik...

Hie friends. i hope you all doing good.As i m here today, you must have understood that i'm going to eat li'l more of your head with my things left unsaid :p  well 'A MOMENT TO REMEMBER' , sounds like so big kind of words, isn't it? dont worry i'm still a dumbo and i still havn't got such a smart brain, to think such big words. but its a movie, a korean movie, that i just watched today. really sweet one. dont worry i'm not going to tell you the story of movie. but this post is again about things that left unsaid. so, i was talking abt movie.hmmm...after that movie i found myself overloaded with lots of emotions and sentiment that i just felt like sharing. i had read somewhere, words by BEN IRWIN - "most of us spend our lives as if we have another one in the bank" and alot of same kind of questions strike on my mind... that why? why we all spend our lives thinking 'let it be' kind of things? why we all spend our lives thinking ...