scribbles of lazy me

And i found a book in my store room lying in heap of books.Actually, It would be wrong to call it a book, it was an album, covered in dust and i thought it had disappeared.I brushed off the dust with with my fingers and discovered some familiar words written in bold letters  "Truncated Childhood" i read it aloud and a voice echoed in that empty room.A Lorry full of memories accelerated through my mind as the voice echoed and a spark appeared in the eyes like i was a new born baby and was going to see my mom for the first time.i turned over the cover page and opened it . The first page said "I'll love you even if I'm not here".Reading those words, my eyes got wet but then, i controlled myself and flipped the page and moved to the next one.The album started with a photograph of a new born baby.Obviously,It was me.It was my album afterall and believe me, when you are just 2 hours of age ,you realy look yuk.Atleast i was looking yuk, thats what i think. But, ...

Sometimes i feel like my head is an egg and you are its yolk that you always keep on rolling inside it, that, At the nights, in my dream i see you and then, i wake up with a thought of you running in mind and thats the way my day starts everyday. Before meeting you, I anticipate about the scene in which i'm with you and i practice the things in front of mirror the way 'i will tell you' . But, the moment you come in front of my eyes, My body goes Numb and i feel so Dumb that i can't utter a word.  Words,I have so many to say. Still, I feel afraid that they might fall short and they might end and in that hullabaloo occuring inside me, I can't even say. My hearts skips a beat when ever i think of you and If we talk about feelings, they are always new, When i'm in front of you. You came and went but these feeling never did the same and everytime i meet you , they are different in a way but they always make me lame. Fears of losing you always keep on...

That one girl, whom he left crying, That one girl, for whom his heart went blind, That one girl, who made him smile, That one girl, who made him believe in love for a while, That one girl, who was his symbol of trust, That one girl, who was his one & only lust That one girl, for whom he could take on the world, That one girl, whose heart was as pure as a pearl That one girl, who meant life for him, That one girl, who is now just a dream That one girl, who he yearns for at night That one girl, whose eyes could start a fight That one girl, who he left alone, That one girl, who is now somewhat gone That one girl, who is truly missed That one girl, for whom he wishes now if she exist...

HIE FRIENDS ... Today,i have a story to share with you and mark my word friends, its worth reading.. Here it goes.. Long time ago, there was a beautiful princess of some kingdom (Dont worry ,its not like that old stories of prince and princess.. its lil different. a story of a princess and slave). so, where was i? yeah, one of the pawn of that kingdom fell in love with that princess and without caring about his life, he went to princess and expressed his love and all the feelings , he had for her. Princess   :  what's so special about you that i should love you? Are you the prince of somewhere? or you are the poet or some great artist, that i would give my heart for his talent. or Are you the strongest pawn of my kingdom? pawn  : neither i m a prince nor a poet and artist.I m simple pawn who cant even prove that he is the strongest of all . But ya , i can prove one thing that i love you alot and no one else can love  you, the way i do. princess :  Then p...

Yesterday night was one of those wierd nights that i realy dont want to go through and live.. wierd nights with wierd dreams... wierd dreams making me fall with fears ....fear of losing someone.. fear of being lone again.. fear to get those days back when i used to smile or i should say fake smile but inside it was all shattered... inside there was nothing but darkness. May be thats my destiny. I always try to take this world in positive way and to some extent i do it as well but u know what sometimes its hard enough to be positive bcoz sometimes this life itself become so negative that nothing can be positive after it. There was always a single question in my head that why we need others to be with us. Are we dependent on them or we are selfish enough that we be them bcoz we need them. Human nature is really hard to understand, isnt it? we cant live without people, always have fear of losing them but when they are with us...we never care for their existence, never make them feel s...